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Environmental inputs:

• Location: Room (bedroom)
• Activity: Preparing for sleep
• Context: Son already asleep

Thought emergence:

Suddenly realizing why the need to optimize my brain”
“What if I don’t have access to those books should that mean I’m left behind?”
“What if I live in a different country, location where different, cultures maybe unheard of”
“Does that mean it’s my loss not actively seeking novel ways or unable to know as soon as I can the latest research?”
“What not?”

Biological cascade:

• Pre-sleep anxiety activation
• Future location uncertainty triggered
• Resource scarcity fear emerged
• “Left behind” narrative activated
• Knowledge FOMO response

Observable patterns:

• Stimulus: Bedtime transition + quiet
• Response: Optimization worry spiral
• Immigration precarity underlying theme
• Access inequality awareness
• Similar to: “Not enough” pattern
• Location-dependent knowledge fear

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