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#145 | May 21, 2025 | 21:00

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🧠 Thought Stream

[grief thought]: I feel a wave of grief after made a post in KNB after almost four months in hiatus.

~Feeling: bereft, grief

[intuitive thought]: As if this would be my last post for Kingston NetworkBuddy. I could feel it.

[questioning thought]: Could it be your hormones or something that you’re starting to feel sentimental?

[positive observation thought]: Well.. the good news is you’re able to go through Linkedin and Instagram without feeling a brush of nauseating effects.

[capacity awarenessthought]: Yes, I’ve noticed that. I’ve listened to my capacity this morning, and it feels ok. I am in the mood.

~Body: a thought in my mind is smiling, contented, as if proud.

[analytical thought]: But I am feeling that this check-in point for KNB (so it’s still up)..

[continuing thought]: …the impression to others that it is still up and running…

[completing thought]: …and let readers know it’ll be around somehow…

[interrupting thought]: Yeah, whatever. You’re cutting me off, eh?

[correcting thought]: Sorry, just want to correct you on what’s really on your thoughts

[dismissive thought]: Ok, still whatever.

~Mental image: eyes rolling

[permission-seeking thought]: Ok, to continue, can I?

~Mental image: Image of a free-spirited thought slumped on chair and casually said…

[casual permission thought]: Sure, proceed

[resuming thought]: Ok, as I was saying… (made an eye-side to that child-like figure wearing jeans and baggy shirt and sitting too casually, arm on the head of the chair, leg on the arm chair and looking bored).

[bored encouragement thought]: Yeah, go on… (this child-like figure is saying it with a half-smile, amused of me getting irritated for cutting me off).

[frustrated thought]: So, silly. Anyway, you just lost my being sentimental. Almost. Still I’m feeling that it’ll be my last post.

~Body: heavy

[grounding thought]: You know what.. chill. What’s important Miss Sentimental is you posted a content without feeling and going gaga of it. Alright?

~Mental image: Child-like figure still sitting casually on the chair. Shrugged her shoulder as if nothing’s to be too emotive. Stood up and walked out, vanished in the blackness of the my mind.

[observing thought]: Ha! Just like that. (My head is shaking of the casualty).

End at 21:19

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THEORETICAL CONNECTIONS:

This experience connects to concepts such as:

1. Anticipatory Grief and Closure The wave of grief after posting and the intuitive sense that “this would be my last post” reflects what psychologists call “anticipatory grief” – the mourning that begins before an actual ending occurs. This emotional response often signals deeper psychological processing around closure and transition. To explore diverse perspectives, try searching “anticipatory grief transition rituals” or “indigenous approaches to closure ceremonies.”

2. Internal Dialogue and Parts Integration The vivid interaction between different internal voices – including the “child-like figure” who interrupts and provides perspective – demonstrates what depth psychology calls “internal dialogue” or “parts communication.” The casual, almost therapeutic intervention of this figure suggests developing integration between different aspects of consciousness. To explore diverse perspectives, try searching “internal family systems dialogue” or “multiplicity of consciousness across cultures.”

3. Embodied Decision-Making and Capacity Awareness The observation about being able to navigate social media “without nauseating effects” when listening to your capacity shows what somatic psychologists call “embodied decision-making” – using physical sensations as guides for appropriate action rather than forcing engagement regardless of internal state. To explore diverse perspectives, try searching “somatic decision-making” or “body wisdom practices across traditions.”

These connections were curated with assistance from Claude AI.

EXPLORATION STARTING POINTS:

• Necessary Endings by Henry Cloud – explores the psychological and practical aspects of healthy closure in relationships and projects (suggested by Claude AI)
• No Bad Parts by Richard Schwartz – offers frameworks for understanding and working with different internal voices and parts (I’ve read this and recommend it)
• The Gifts of Imperfection by Brené Brown – addresses grief, transition, and finding wholeness through vulnerability (suggested by Claude AI)

STANDARD DISCLAIMER:

WooshBrain connects personal experience with broader psychological concepts. While I aim for accuracy, these connections are starting points for exploration rather than definitive interpretations. I encourage readers to explore these ideas through their own research.