Menstrual Cycle: Day 6

Location: Home – room

Context thought: Triggered of what I missed to consider of another job as Dietary Aid and will have interview on May 7th. That means I’ll have two jobs (cleaner and dietary aid), possible a Fitness Trainer if needed by next year to add credibility and build a brand, a YT channel, a PT course starting on May 16th until 10 months with Menno Henselman’s course. A rush of future what to-dos.

🧠 Thought Stream

[native language doubt]: doubts setting in. makaya ba kaha nako ni. murag daghan naman kaayo kog gina-apas. hahay
[Translation: Can I really handle this? It feels like I’m chasing too many things already. sigh]

[value conflict thought]: I hate the thought nga dali-dalion tas panahon. For example, “start YT channel now.. it’s the best time to start..” I would love to but makes me feel like I’m not disciplined enough to make my day “productive.”
[Translation: I hate the thought that we need to rush with time.]

[frustration thought]: Hahay naa nasab ng bwesit kaayo nga mga istorya.
[Translation: Sigh. There are those annoying/frustrating stories again.]

[self-regulating thought]: Nagpanic napod ka. Ayaw. Steady, please. Hold your reins. Remember… breathe.
[Translation: You’re panicking again. Don’t. Steady, please.]

body: body took inhale, exhale, closed eyes

[Filipino wisdom + grounding thought]: There’s no competition. Pastilan. Ayaw pag ana Maan. You’ve been through alot. Ayaw padala anang FOMO. Focus sa unsay need nimo buhaton. Future is just a fantasy. It’s not arriving yet. If it’s not here now.. it’s a dream.
[Translation: There’s no competition. Oh my goodness. Don’t be like that, Maan. Don’t give in to that FOMO. Focus on what you need to do.]

[confused thought]: Aysa nawala kos passing. Confused what is it about the future.
[Translation: Oh, I lost my train of thought.]

[clarifying native thought]: Aw kay buang naman pod kag sugod hunahuna nga apson jud. Mura kag gilakag. Wala may galakag sa imo Maan. It’s from others
[Translation: Oh, because you’re starting to think again that you need to compete/achieve quickly. It’s like you’re being chased. But nobody is chasing you, Maan. It’s from others.]

feeling: started to feel relief

[reassuring native thought]: Walay naglakag. Walay competition. Ang karong adlawa unsay bulohaton moy atubanga. Wala pa gani diha.. daghan nag plano ug ga-panic na. Siaw.
[Translation: No one is chasing you. There’s no competition. Face today’s tasks. Things aren’t even here yet… but you’re already planning a lot and panicking. Silly.]

[wise native thought]: Ayaw padala jud unsay ingon sa uban. Ayaw kasuya kay ilaha pod na.
[Translation: Don’t be swayed by what others say. Don’t be envious because that’s their journey.]

[encouraging thought]: I know murag nabuhi imong dugo of possibilities unsay mahimo nimo after a year. BUT again, it starts what you can do NOW. Not to-morrow but karon. Okay?
[Translation: I know it’s like your blood is stirring with possibilities of what you can accomplish after a year. BUT again, it starts with what you can do NOW. Not tomorrow but now. Okay?]

[accepting thought]: Okay. Got it.

body: Body stress starts to slow down

[practical native thought]: Now go eat. Tingog na imong tiyan.
[Translation: Now go eat. Your stomach is growling.]

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