Between Obligation and Passion: Navigating Priorities Before the CELPIP Exam

Menstrual Cycle: Day 6

Location: home, kitchen

Context thought: Thought about the CELPIP exam for tomorrow, May 3rd.

🧠 Thought Stream

[reflective thought]: You know, I realized that I only made one mock up attempt for CELPIP test.

~body: big sigh

[self-critical thought]: I find the speaking part challenging because I speak slow, think slow.

[priority alignment thought]: I don’t find it my priority now, but just for compliance.

[energy assessment thought]: I had one month’s opportunity to practice, I extended it, but I got tired. I don’t know.

[Filipino wisdom thought]: Well, ingon ana judna guro. (That’s just how it is). It’s telling you something. It’s telling you something. You procrastinated for long for it?

~body: big sigh.

[pragmatic thought]: Anyway, today after your cleaning work, get some… Try for the last time review and then you’re done by tomorrow.

[honest assessment thought]: I don’t feel any guilt but distant. I’m not treating it now as such a big deal.

[curious thought]: I guess your mind was busy of building some possible future business and readying your thoughts for your body recomposition. Is that it?

[confirming thought]: Yes. I find them more fulfilling. My mind right now is trying to remember and reflect what Im really feeling towards the CELPIP EXAM.

[cultural processing thought]: Wala judkoy mabatian man. Ngano kaha ni. (I can’t feel anything about it. I wonder why).

[playful thought]: Now you’re worried kay wala kay pakialam. Ka-joker oi. (Now you’re worried because you don’t care. What a joker).

~Body sensations: light

[maternal thought]: Time to prep for breakfast coz it’s now 7:02. Wala paka ka-decide unsay balonon sa imong anak.

[dismissive thought]: Yeah yeah

End at 7:03

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