The Awakening: Calling Upon Dormant Strength

Cycle: Luteal Phase – Day 28

Location: Home – desk

Context: Done exercising.

🧠 Thought Stream

[reflective thought]: I surprised myself today. 2 things: (1) I was torn and conflicted inside from morning until 18:00, whether I should work out or skip (a scheduled workout). But I showed up anyway. Second, I didn’t care if it was already evening. And it’s my first time in my life doing so. I really don’t know what to explicitly feel.

[amazed thought]: I am amazed that the old part of me honoured the scheduled workout. I overcame confusion, and I acted. It’s like “Whaaat?!” You did that? It is a big deal.

~Feeling proud, capable

[affirming thought]: IT IS A BIG DEAL. Something inside you are awaken. Those two big moments in your life that you changed your body and thinking and view in life when you persisted. Healthy and unhealthy ways… you showed results, gained lessons, and wisdom.

[encouraging thought]: Now, hopefully this exact moment opened and cracked something inside you… a peek into what you were able to do… a peek of stocks of strengths you already have… waiting to be called upon. You know what I mean, right?

[connecting thought]: I know what you mean. I am still trying to close my eyes, and feel it… let my body feel that old strengths hibernating. She’s still inside me… that identity that’s obsessed with fitness. A woman who plans, tracks, works her best…

~Feelings: energized, invigorated, renewed, hopeful

~Body sensations: pulsing, sparkly

[supportive thought]: I hope this is continuing… old and new you. Cement identities once and for all. I am with you. I am with you. I am rooting for you. Just call us… we’re here.

End at 20:58

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