Letting Go of the January Narrative

Sometimes clarity means it’s not for me at this time.

Luteal Cycle: Day 20
Location: Home – Study Table
Context: Jason’s advice reflection on my lack of self-accountability

🧠 Thought Stream

[reflective thought]: It’s amazing how my first intention of setting projects for my life changes after a quarter. It just doesn’t resonate with me. Hmmm… there’s clarity (sort of) and being realistic. I find that anything or anytime upon …

[body sensation]: slow to think, like catching thoughts on air

[honest thought]: I’m saying that what I wrote last January 17 was written from “needing” to set a goal.

[naming thought]: ah, New Year’s itch

[insightful thought]: probably, that’s it. From a POV of limited resources or scarcity, being competitive. I don’t like reading what I wrote in my Essentialism planner. It sounded like I’m gasping for air, forced to find a purpose, and ended up too big for my capacity.

[gentle realization]: and realized now, that it’s just one step at a time. But how do others find that thing… their ONE THING? Maybe it comes from clarity and with right purpose.

[feeling thought]: I still feel lost.

[grounding thought]: Maybe start eating better. That’s feasible and reachable. One step at a time.

[body check-in]: I now gained 63.2 this morning. Ate sweets, overate, too.

[body sensation]: contained, sort of breathless

[feeling]: down, confused

📄 Reference: January 17 Essentialism Planner Page

This is the kind of goal that results from confusion. It was meaningful at the time, but now, coming from grounded makes sense for my overall well-being.

end at 6:23