Luteal Cycle: Day 18

Location: Planet Fitness – Parking Lot

Context: after working out

Parking Lot Moment: Caught Between Obligations

[transition thought]: just finished working out and now at the parking lot.. in the car, sat for 10 minutes, engine on. thinking. staring at the distance while listening to my husband’s voice messages about juxtaposing Canada life and Philippines life.

[body sensations]: empty

[existential thought]: i don’t know really. Feels directionless. what am I looking for? What do i want to feel?

[body]: big sigh

[responsibility thought]: i really got to go.. Dragan (my son) is probably waiting. It’s 19:53, and he needs to be in bed by 20:30.

[feeling]: disengaged

end at 19:54