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The Evolution of Aspirations: Reflections on a Year-Old Note

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[surprised thought]: where the fuck did I read this? LOL!

[clarifying thought]: you mean, get those ideas?

[feeling]: confused, suprised

[feeling]: dumb-founded

[body]: stress response

[perspective thought]: sometimes, and (maybe) most of the times, our current, the today, is what matters. Surviving another year means each day’s experiences build (you) up. Experiences, thoughts will change. You are at a different phase now.

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continue thinking at 11:09

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[reflective thought]: there’s danger in being exposed to a kind of thinking of somewhat competitiveness. i really don’t know what’s my mental status and environment were that pushed me to be this kind of person. the why is missing.

[contextualizing thought]: hmmm it’s really interesting. it seems you were playing at a game of scarcity. what is there to prove. oh well, we’re forgetting you were and is still is a newcomer. navigating best in a new world, new culture, cultivating a new identity. so, i say, these are normal part of adulting, of growing up. we are all still growing up and relearning and learning.

[appreciative thought]: the progress of thinking and experiences in one year’s time is astounding and impressive. so i say, keep doing what it is you’re doing now. in one year time, you will be amazed how far you’ve come….

[shifting thought]: thinking of fitness and health …

[feelings]: inspired

[body]: eustress

[philosophical thought]: (continue)… thoughts and beliefs and thinking models are build up and replaced. it’s really beautiful and somewhat devastating at one corner if you think about it.

[observant thought]: what i like about this entry’s last year was you were able to document your plans but never came to fruition. not in a bad way or negative way but im talking about the current state of mind on March 28, 2024. anything can happen.

[grateful thought]: yes i agree. glad i captured this “planning thought”…

[body]: sigh

[feelings]: tired

[concluding thought]: it’s too much thinking about this now. enough. i have to review CELPIP now.

[body]: deep sigh

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end at 11:16