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The Mirror, the Voice, and the Oatmeal: A Familiar Internal Debate

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[trigger]: my husband showed his healthy breakfast during video call, reminded he will suffer as consequences of his present choices, eating healthy can help you save money

[feeling]: guilt, irritation

[body]: rolling eyes, sigh

[reflective thought]: well, why is it really hard to decide and choose what’s obviously good for you, for us?

[frustrated thought]: ngano kaha ba. Ngano kaha nag gahi Jud akong ulo. Lisod. Galisod ko. ambot unsaon ni ipasabot. hahay. tabang lord!

[speculative thought]: too many choices siguro.

[rationalizing thought]: pero kung buot bitaw nimo hunahunaon.. sayon ra baya dagay jud mamili ug pagkaon.

[acknowledging thought]: gapatintal mangud na sya. humok ug ilong..perme. ngita ug lami perme. lami jud bitaw. tinuod pero.. dili jud mao nga kada adlaw nalang ba murag mahadlok mahutdan ug lami nga pagkaon.

[self-questioning thought]: unsa jud kahay maayo buhaton.. nga ma-remind ko.

[humorous thought]: hahaha sayon.. nga gadako na imong tiyan. pag oatmeal ug gatas gud kadabuntag. unsa may lisod dumdumon ana. hahaha siaw.

[self-critical thought]: bitaw, trainer man unta. asa na kaha ang edukasyon natun-an gibutang.

[resigned thought]: hahay kasamok ba oi.. lahi mangud ng education versus application.

[revealing thought]: lami ug sayon rajud kaayo manambag sa uban.. murag expert ba? haha

[conscious thought]: whatever.

[self-compassionate thought]: hahay Maan.. ayaw kasuko. kay tinuod manjud. so, unsa juy balakid beh? igna ko. kay ato ng sutaon.

[conscious thought]: well, it’s bed time. can’t think right now. maybe tomorrow. magtiwas tag istorya. kay dili najud ni maayo. im not liking what im seeing in the mirror anymore. hapit napod ko mag 62kg. been suck on and off with this. hahay

[blunt thought]: i hope dili ka malimot kay.. nagkatigulang naka. 42 years old.. still doing the same unhealthy shitty habits. good riddance

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