[conscious thought]: You have been sitting all day. Just documenting your thoughts.

[guilty + accusatory thought]: you’re feeling hip discomfort again. you didn’t even bother to plan to go the gym

[defensive thought]: the weather wasn’t good, was it? you saw it. stop demanding and making me feel guilty

[guilty thought]: we’re not. just telling you.

[defensive thought]: are you trying to tell me then to make me feel bad?

[a-matter-of-fact thought]: Look, you gained weight. stop softening it.

[conscious thought]: I am just saying that my hips is complaining again of constant sitting down.

[accusatory thought]: You didn’t even finish the whole CELPIP reviewing because you chose to track your thoughts. to make you feel comforted.

[supportive thought]: Not wrong at all.

[impatient planner thought]: So what’s your plan? workout tomorrow?

[logical thought]: check the weather.

[impatient planner + accusatory thought]: and if the weather sucks again? what you going to do? sit again?

[body’s reaction]: throbbing headache. ngolngol ang sigeg kakilid sa ulo. increase heart rate. starting to feel the heat of my face

[conscious thought]: i’m bad.

[trying-to-be-coach thought]: no you’re not. don’t be soft. don’t be sissy

[logical + planner thought]: let’s chill this out for the meantime. now, you’re forgetting to eat. it’s 6:22 already.

[bully thought]: what a soft baby. tsk tsk. can’t stand it up.

[conscious + defensive thought]: be very careful of what you say. watch your mouth.

[defeated bully thought]: okay, okay, just telling

[visual]: hands up figure inside my mind like leaving me alone

[supportive thought]: now, let’s go and eat. that’s it for the day. wrap up time. i trust you.